Let's talk about friends today. What does friend mean to you? In general, friend is a person whom one knows, likes and trust, or an acquaintance. For me, friend is part of my life. They are a bunch of people I spent most of my time with besides my family. From an article, I found that there are 4 types of friend: must friends, trust friends, rust friends and just friends.

Must friend is a best friend, a member of your inner circle, a person you count on when something big happens in your life. I have a must friend. 'A' as in one. This person I knew her for not a very long time, about 4-5 years, but yeah, I consider her as my must friend. Whenever I have an issue about anything, the first I thought of is her and I will call her immediately. We can talk like few hours non-stop. Although we did have some conflict back there, but we actually made it through. And babe, if you are reading this (you know who you are), I hope our friendship can last forever. Love you! <3

Second is trust friend. Trust friend is a friend who shows integrity, someone you feel comfortable with, that you're always glad to see, but not in your inmost circle: perhaps someone you'd like to be closer to, if you had the time or opportunity. I have a trust friend as well. 'A' as in one again. This someone special is really special to me. This person's identity will always remain private and confidential. People might know this person but things between us will always only kept between us. I trust this person more than anyone else. Although I don't really talk a lot to this person but yeah, this person will always have the priority in my heart.

Next, rust friend. It is a person you have know for a long long time; you are probably not going to get any closer to that person, unless something changes, but a part of your life. I don't think I have a rust friend. I do have friends that I knew for a long time but still not consider as rust friend yet. Hope that in the coming years I will have one. :)

Just friend is a person who is enjoyable company, but you have no desire to socialize outside a specific context or to get to know that person better. I have tons of just friends, like really just friends! I have no idea what to describe about this. So ya, JUST FRIENDS!

Friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. People might make friends with me just to take advantage. I knew there were few of them now. I don't need friends like that. You can stay away from me like what you guys are doing right now and I won't give a damn. With or without you guys, my life still go on.

Nicole, take your time and observe, and you will see who treats you as real friends!

Don't mix up my personality with my attitude. My personality is me and my attitude depends on who you are. I might not act to please every one of you, so accept me for who I am not who you want or expect me to be.

Another lesson learnt, 'don't judge a book by it's cover'! Yes, we heard this like a thousand times but sometimes we didn't thought of it. Even me, I neglected this part.

I don't wanna mention who or what happened, but I want to highlight that, this is the time I learn how to work with different people. Those I thought they are hardworking were actually hardly work. And vice versa.

So ya, Nicole, you will get through it. Relax and enjoy! :D

One of my assignment is about depression. After doing some research, I think have minor depression problem! I need music to relax my mind. The louder the better!

Actually I personally prefer to do individual rather than group assignment. Is not that I don't like to work with others, is just that I feel more comfortable working alone. While for group assignment, maybe certain people don't really care about it, but I do! My aim is to score 3.5 and above! And assignment affects part of my aim.

I don't know what is the purpose I'm writing this post. But I just feel like writing something other than assignments!

A little update about uni life. First week of class and all I heard in every classes was assignments, deadlines and test! Uni is no longer the life I had in the past few years. No more spoon-feeding from teachers. Everything is on my own now. Those tests are no longer memorize and you can go for exam. Is all about understanding and application.

What are assignments like? Neither individual nor group, lecturers will only give you a title and say 'go back and write an academic paper about it.' What the heck is academic paper? Don't know? You can google it (like google will help much!).

Back in secondary school or form 6, you study certain chapters then only you will start doing your so call 'assignments'. But now, I don't even know what this subject is about and I have to start writing the 'don't know what academic paper'! The deadlines so far are between week 7 and week 13. Seems like a long time to go, but I had only attended 3 classes and already have 1 individual assignment, 2 group assignments, tons of presentations and uncountable tests!

Those I mention above might be a small matter for those year 2 or year 3 or even graduated students. But for a freshmen like me, really need some time to get use to it!

It's almost been 19 months now, yet I still find myself thinking about you. Not once or twice a month or once or twice a week, but almost every moment when nothing goes in my mind. When I first know you, I honestly didn't know you were gonna be this important to me. Every moment that I spent with you is the moment I treasure.

I read back our conversation just now due to some reason, and all the flashback happens in my mind. You said nothing's gonna break us apart. You promise you wouldn't leave. But you did. People often ask me 'why do you still love him?' and I answered, 'he gave me feelings other people can't give me'. You are not my prince charming but you certainly are someone that cannot be replaced to me. Sometimes I wonder, if I can fulfill every request of yours, would everything be different?

I never stopped loving you. Even I tried desperately to forget you, I couldn't. If two people aren't meant to be together, why God have to let them meet at first? Every time when I felt very tired and wanted to let go, you will always appear. Is this the sign for me not to let go?

If there is one more chance for me to choose again, I will still choose you.

Moving on to the next chapter of my life, the uni life. What's the hardest part? The hardest part was to start back at step one. Everything is new - environment, culture, people, syllabus. Is like when I first entered nursery, primary school, secondary school and pre-u where I have to find out where is here and there, who is this and that.

I attended my first orientation day today (it was actually the third day, but I didn't attend the first two days). It wasn't a good start because the person in charge gave me wrong instruction and I went to the wrong place. That is number one. Secondly, when I got back to the right faculty and right classroom, other students are sitting together chit-chatting and I am all alone.

But the good thing was all of them are actually really friendly. They invited me to sit together with them and very soon I get to know quite a number of them. I'm not good in socializing which includes making friends, but like what I just mention, thank God the other uni mates are really friendly. So far there are only 4 peoples including me for my course because people usually don't attend orientation. Besides uni mates/course mates, some of the seniors include my mentors are also very friendly, funny and helpful.

This is a little explanation or maybe the introduction of my uni life. Let's see what will happen when the class commence next week. Hope this chapter will be another interesting part of my story. Xoxo!